Wednesday 4 November 2020

Neuro-divergent Poems #2

Escape
I'm stuck in a rat race. Going quickly to no place. No smiley on my face. Hiding here in my carapace. Need to free up my brain, from the torturous pain. It drives me insane. Too hard to explain. Just need to think. Dump thoughts into ink. I don’t want to sink. Going round on the rink. Escape from the shell, from the nine to five hell. Awaiting the knell. Someone please ring the bell. There IS more than this. A peaceful-like bliss. A loved ones light kiss. Just not the abyss. I just need more time. More words, less mime. Mountains, sublime. Too many to climb. I give it my best, put in all of my zest. There's no time to rest, to finish all that's behest. There's a world out there waiting, for idle contemplating. Not for anger or hating, but for mere satiating. Let's put down our tools. Let's break all the rules. They'll have us for fools, yet they are the ghouls. Don't wait for the end or for those who depend. Don't meander or wend. For yourself you must tend.

Wednesday 12 August 2020

Neuro-divergent Poems #1

If I were these things...
I wouldn't have blindness, for I would be blind. I wouldn't have kindness, for I would be kind. I wouldn't have deafness, for I would be deaf. I wouldn't have left-ness, I would just write with my left. I wouldn't have mutism, for I would be mute. I don't have conditions, for you to dispute. I don't have Autism, for I am Autistic. I do have Sarcasm, for I'm being Sarcastic.

Monday 3 August 2020

Interview with Leah Leaves for ADHD Lives

Today I went right out of my comfort zone and did a live interview with the lovely Leah Leaves, who runs Leah Leaves ADHD Hypnotherapy and Coaching.
ADHD Lives Episode 5: Dave Marsh

This episode I'm delighted to welcome Dave Marsh. Dave is an IT professional, and was diagnosed with ADHD, Autism, Dyslexia and Dyspraxia 4 years ago at the age of 49. Since his diagnosis, he has been able to understand situations in which he had struggled at work in the past. Dave wants his story to help others who may be wondering if they may have ADHD. If you'd like to be notified when this and future episodes stream, then click here: https://m.me/livewellwithADHD?ref=w11711512

Posted by Leah Leaves Hypnotherapy on Monday, 3 August 2020

Saturday 1 August 2020

Time flies, way too fast.

When I was a kid I would imagine that I could stop time. Everyone would be frozen and I would be free to do what I needed to do unimpinged by the demands of others. Real life is so far removed from such fantasies yet my battle with the passing of time is still very real. So it is unsurprising that I have been away from blogging for what seems like a few months but is in fact a few years.

Since I last wrote on here I have discovered that I not only have ADHD, but I am also Autistic, Dyslexic, and Dyspraxic. All this time and I did not know, although as I've probably mentioned before, I knew there was something about me that wasn't the same as everyone else, and I just couldn't put my finger on it.

You might be wondering if I should change the name of my blog, but being distracted is as relevant now as it was at the beginning, so no. However, I will update the blog subtitle so I can talk about the other conditions over time.

Yes Time, my archnemesis, there is never enough you.

I've worked out a rough formula for real-time to ADHD-time. Personally I find real-time passes at 6x that of ADHD-time. When I think that 5 minutes have elapsed, it often turns out to be 30 minutes. Despite a plethora of clocks around the house, and numerous watches, unless time is the thing I am focusing on then I have no idea how much of it has passed.

There are so many thought's and ideas going around in my head that I cannot make enough time to do them all, but the ideas and thoughts keep coming and it's not something I can control. It's quite exhausting and disabling.

Whatever it is I am doing, it is always right up to the last minute, leaving no time to tidy or clean up after myself, or write about what I was doing. I could really do with a personal assistant.